Togo of Grand Smials ([info]hfx_ben) wrote,
@ 2006-07-18 00:00:00
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What broke my brain in September of 1973?

"Practice to Deceive" - By Joshua Micah Marshall;
Washington Monthly April 2003
Chaos in the Middle East is not the Bush hawks' nightmare scenario -- it's their plan.
I realized that the whole security thing into which I had inserted myself as a communications intelligence operator was a shell game. "Shell game", get it?

The guy who drew this cartoon was mebbe pretty kewl, and mebbe pretty with it ... me? 30 years earlier, after infantry and paratroop training I was using the most state of the art tech to keep an eye on Soviet fighter command, to locate and track Soviet communications ships at sea ... to intercept high-speed transmissions from their subs, and from their agents on land ... from time to time to poke one of their satellites in the eye.

I was on the edge of the blade.
Thirty years later buddy was drawing cartoons to bring things to light.

More than thirty years later ... what are you doing?

In the Nazi concentration camps "nice" people had all sorts of support jobs ... scheduling staff, fixing and driving the buses and trucks, and the trains ...
... it takes all sorts of "nice" people doing "normal" jobs to support a corrupt system.

Are you so stupid as to think that we can have Global Gulag and you'll be just fine?
Guess what: once you're addicted to dishonesty you're just another junkie ... just another whore.
That's the best you think you deserve? Sure ... it's like that ... the fuckers have messed with your brains.

My experiences didn't make me a loser. I may not have succeeded in my work but I'm still hard at it.

What are you doing?
Are you just another loser?
So okay, let's say you deserve the shitty situation you're in ... what about the rest of the people that are in the situation right along with you? You just gonna shrug 'em off? Bitch.

Don't you realize that you're going to go insane? Really and truly ... you don't have the balls to handle the guilt. You ain't no Wolfowitz or Perls or Cheney.



I've been watching The Power of Nightmares" (Archive.org; various formats); it's on CBC NewsWorld this evening.
"In the past our politicians offered us dreams of a better world. Now they promise to protect us from nightmares.

The most frightening of these is the threat of an international terror network. But just as the dreams were not true, neither are these nightmares.
"
It's everything I was talking about since the early 70s. Loser? No, I'm no loser ... I'm just a failure ... the benign neglect of "nice" people has crippled me. (Which, of course, was their intention.)


Go ahead ... google ... give your fucking head a shake.
 



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[info]tibialmusician
2006-07-18 06:45 am UTC (link)
Don't you realize that you're going to go insane? Really and truly ... you don't have the balls to handle the guilt. You ain't no Wolfowitz or Perls or Cheney.


What if you can admit that to yourself? Then what do you do?

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[info]hfx_ben
2006-07-18 02:41 pm UTC (link)
Every successful project I've ever worked on succeeded because everybody involved did what they could, whatever they could, in whatever way they could.

A lotta times over the past ?what? 20+ years I've come up with lists of tips or actions or entry points or something like that ... one time, early 80s (I was giving talks about the "slippery slope" of small smart weapons like the cruise missile) someone asked me something like that and I answered, "The biggest thing you can do for the movement is to find an answer that fits you and your own situation."

Now, so much further down the road, so many times waking up and realizing *shit!* no milk for coffee and 10 days of macaroni to go, I've boiled it down to something simpler: not nothing.

See, the mind-phuck / blue pill reality of it is that it all hinges on self-determination, self-authorship ... what I think is the core of real citizenship. (When I get into this theme I point to a little page I made: CityZen ... I put some time in to make that page, and I put some time in creating support material, but fact is that almost 0.0% of the people who visited the page bothered to click the email button.

The real gold mine, to my way of thinking? Like minded folk ... course there's always the possibility of group-think, but still.

Anyhow, the real pathology comes when we stiffle the intuition, the urge to do this or that or the other ... nipped in the bud. That "stiffling" poisons us ... we end up sabotaging anybody who shows initiative. ("Who the hell do they think they are!")

Sorry I can't advise "Insert credit card and press the keypad to indicate your selection" ... it isn't like that.

Follow your bliss!

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